Monday, November 2, 2009
*image borrowed from google*Quoting from wikipedia:
"Crossroads (culture), an intersection of roads. This meaning is used metaphorically
as a place where other things – both physical and abstract – meet."
as a place where other things – both physical and abstract – meet."
Sachi on the other hand has another way of seeing a crossroad. For me, crossroad is a point where you are in a neutral ground and are about to make a choice, hence the neutrality stops. It's a crucial place, so crucial that many avoid them, I believe. But somehow destiny has managed to put me on crossroads every now and then. I wouldn't know and I have no attention of analysing too if I've chosen the right road for me. So far, I regret nothing grand about my life. Here's what I realized, when I'm at a crossroad, I feel like the decision I'm about to make is such a big deal (and maybe, just maybe it really is) but the moment I picked and walked down on one road, the big deal about it ceases. The moment I decide on something, my focus also diverts like automatically and I guess I know deep inside that there's nothing else I could do to turn back time so why waste my time and energy thinking about the could-have-beens & should-have-beens from the past.
Going back to the crossroad where I'm at, I have 12 days to think about which road shall I take soon. The good thing about me, I believe that no matter what decision I'll make, it would be what's best for me. Maybe not in the way I'm expecting it to be or other people are expecting it to be but I really just have faith that HE's leading me to the right path. And right path does not mean easy nor comfortable but a path which will make me a better believer in HIM and a better person for the world.
So, that's the positive way I'm seeing my situation now. For some darker side, I'll be hypocrite if I'll say being at a crossroad is fine with me, or it ain't stressful. Sure it feels like shit to be in a situation where you had to make a choice that would definitely affect you and other people's lives. It has a risk you know. So, it still sucks, thinking about it over and over again until the deadline comes to make your choice final.
During crossroads, sure I seek advices from different trusted persons close to my heart. But, I'm the most hard-headed and stubborn girl in town deep inside (except w/ my mom). Meaning, when someone's talking to me about something, I can argue up to the end (no kidding). I can do that with my mouth open or shut. (some skill, eh?) =p If we're close, I'll argue through talking, however if we're not, the arguments will stay inside my head (so I'll stay as a winner!) hehehe With that attitude, do you think I can follow other people's advises? Don't get me wrong, I do listen, I do get and even use their points but I rarely, rarely follow exactly what others are saying. Advices help indeed but the one thing that really get me through during and after a crossroad is FAITH, no doubt. Faith in HiS Love for me. FAith that He wont let anything bad happen to me. Faith in myself.
Faith is such a very strong and wide word for me. It's almost everything to me. I mean, it could make you stronger & at the same time it makes you humble and all that. So, I'm wondering, though my Faith for sure needs more nourishing, where or how far will it take me. Isn't it exciting to know? =p
As I've said I'll be moving out from this Neutral Ground, soon and by the time it's over and done one thing is for sure, I DID it with FAITH!
P.S. From this blog forward, expect an older but bolder, more serious but more fun, more open mind & open heart posts from Miss Sachi. (hope so!)
Keep the blogrolling!
All Love,
Miss Sachi
Going back to the crossroad where I'm at, I have 12 days to think about which road shall I take soon. The good thing about me, I believe that no matter what decision I'll make, it would be what's best for me. Maybe not in the way I'm expecting it to be or other people are expecting it to be but I really just have faith that HE's leading me to the right path. And right path does not mean easy nor comfortable but a path which will make me a better believer in HIM and a better person for the world.
So, that's the positive way I'm seeing my situation now. For some darker side, I'll be hypocrite if I'll say being at a crossroad is fine with me, or it ain't stressful. Sure it feels like shit to be in a situation where you had to make a choice that would definitely affect you and other people's lives. It has a risk you know. So, it still sucks, thinking about it over and over again until the deadline comes to make your choice final.
During crossroads, sure I seek advices from different trusted persons close to my heart. But, I'm the most hard-headed and stubborn girl in town deep inside (except w/ my mom). Meaning, when someone's talking to me about something, I can argue up to the end (no kidding). I can do that with my mouth open or shut. (some skill, eh?) =p If we're close, I'll argue through talking, however if we're not, the arguments will stay inside my head (so I'll stay as a winner!) hehehe With that attitude, do you think I can follow other people's advises? Don't get me wrong, I do listen, I do get and even use their points but I rarely, rarely follow exactly what others are saying. Advices help indeed but the one thing that really get me through during and after a crossroad is FAITH, no doubt. Faith in HiS Love for me. FAith that He wont let anything bad happen to me. Faith in myself.
Faith is such a very strong and wide word for me. It's almost everything to me. I mean, it could make you stronger & at the same time it makes you humble and all that. So, I'm wondering, though my Faith for sure needs more nourishing, where or how far will it take me. Isn't it exciting to know? =p
As I've said I'll be moving out from this Neutral Ground, soon and by the time it's over and done one thing is for sure, I DID it with FAITH!
P.S. From this blog forward, expect an older but bolder, more serious but more fun, more open mind & open heart posts from Miss Sachi. (hope so!)
Keep the blogrolling!
All Love,
Miss Sachi
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