♥ Sachi on CHOOSING, ENVY & DREAMS ♥

Monday, November 2, 2009

Is it me or just the moon tonight that's driving my mind into the land of crazy thoughts?

What's the drama, you might be wondering. Well, as I previously blogged, six months ago I tried to migrate, leaving everything I love behind. [As I promised too, I'll try to be more open-minded and more open-hearted as I have ever been before.] After half a year I decided to go back because of so-many-to-mention reasons. [I'll be flying in a couple of weeks] I do not exactly know if it's the recent events that are bugging me or the people i know who are to migrate soon [everybody just seems to be leaving RP] or my decision to be more open-minded or the full moon tonight that is giving me this 'feeling'. The feeling of wanting just to stay here. hahaha.... I know I'm so hard to understand, that's why I do not ask to be understood by everyone. I'm a woman after all, what an excuse to change my mind as fast as the next tick of the clock. nyahahaha =p

I guess it's true that you won''t miss something until the moment you loose it and people just tend to want what they don't have.

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I guess so too, blessed are those who say: "THERE'S NOTHING ELSE I CAN POSSIBLY ASK FOR IN LIFE!" [or they're just lying?, what do you think?] Say we take it as unquestionable truth, I just wonder, when will be the time I'll be saying that. Can somebody tell me how to get to that point!? (read: NOW)
For me, even though it's absolutely their freedom to feel and say there's nothing else they could ask out of life - If I were them, I'll probably just keep it to myself. I see that gesture as a way of staying humble. Why? Sure you could be an inspiration to others, that is if your life is truly inspirational which I think is very seldom but I could almost surely say that most people would just feel envious, most people would feel that their cases are hopeless, most people would feel that the world is unfair only to them and worse they would think and feel abandoned. I just wonder why not ask CHARITY and KINDNESS out of life. I mean, if they are personally happy with their lives already why not bring their existence to a higher level. Ask and do something for other people. Say, they are into charities already, I suppose and I'm pretty sure that it can never be too much to help others, after all people in need are almost countless nowadays.=p [cool down]

Okay, enough of my pickle-mindedness, enough of my endless wants (hehe) and enough of my deviously envious thoughts. [shrug, shrug, shrug] =p

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I remember I once said that I believe that dreams do die but dreamers do not. I still believe in that though I must admit that dreamers have death too but in the entire life of a dreamer, there could be many dreams. Dreams that changed, got old, replaced, revised, died and born. That's why I come up with this realization:

I have dreams and for me I make them flexible. Some of which I'll allow to die, some I'll change, replace or revise and some are yet to be born if not a sprout. You see, the fact that dreamers die changes my view somehow. Like a man, I'm now more concerned of the path towards my dreams rather than the end goal. I think that in every step to the path I'll take, there are small pieces of my big dream that comes true and those small pieces are the ones I have to cherish because one day they'll be the big & ultimate dream I always had.

To dream is free. Our dreams are absolutely ours. So why do we depend its coming true to other people or chances even. We create it. We hold it. It is just right that we do something about it, after all we're the one who'll benefit from it. Only, let us not forget & ignore the road to our dreams, for all we know it's the best part of dreaming and of our dream itself. =)

All Love,

Miss Sachi