♥ Good vibes. ♥

Friday, February 5, 2010

This is one of those days when my body feels the tiredness brought by a busy mind but still at the end of the day, I feel as if there is nothing I have accomplished. I am left unfulfilled. I love the feeling of exhaustion whether physical or mental or both as long as at the end of the day I can enjoy the fulfillment for my accomplishments, big and small. I just wanna share to the world one personal realization I had as the new year starts. My track record would show the areas of G.A. (my field of profession) I was able to put my hand at. Only few gave me the thrill and sense of achievement, not to mention joy. Most, I simply do not love doing. It would be a cliche if I'd say that the things I hate are the ones who always, always follow my back! haha
But now, it's kinda clear to me what I love to do. I just have to go after it or should I say, I still have to go after it? But I leave that to fate, it's his prerogative to bully me. Anyhows, I've said a lot of times that I will take matters into my own hands but the time that the universe will conspire for me to achieve my goals has not come yet. Lately I'm feeling frustrated again for so many many reasons. And I'm guilty, once this bad vibes entered my mind, my whole system would be corrupted. Bad vibes are like dangerous viruses that could do harm and just shut us down. I get envy with the people around me who seem to be happy and content at their lives. I get jealous with how the great destiny could treat them so nicely. I can't help but compare myself with them, from material aspects up to how they seem to enjoy their work. Period. Enough of bad vibes. It's time to counter attack. So, I prayed for peace and clarity. I do other activities that I love like writing, watching movies, reading books and travel. Honestly, my prayer is still unanswered, atleast in my own perspective. But I believe that time will come and God's plan for me would be more obvious. I believe he'd help me not just to carry on but to actually get in there.

I need no one's admiration or attention to be happy and content

with my own joyful, sometimes silly, complex yet simple life.

Sometimes, we all just need to remind ourselves that there is no REAL race in life. So, no need to hurry. Take time to enjoy the sceneries. We're not here to prove something to someone. We are here to please God and Him only. And the next time I'll feel envy about what others have, I'll slap and remind myself that I am hurting God for He has already given me what I need and will continue to provide for me all throughout my life. And just by looking at birds who seem to be well-provided by their Creator, I should feel secured.

All love, Miss Sachi