♥ Insecurities. Money. The Villain In Me. ♥

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Hiyya! Was supposed to finish my current fave reading and was supposed to do some posting plus quick catch ups on the web when Lovey asked me to call him. As per usual, we ended up talking for 2 LONG, fun-packed and devious hours. =p

I do 80% of the talking! And he listens very well. At the end of it he thanked me for a whole lot of stories and facts I've shared. [ps: for sneakers we never even try to discuss work nowadays - that's rule no. 1 for this year]. We talked about how we loved each other for the past 26 months. [cheesy] We talked about public transport and MAD COW and the whole ranch. We talked about Ilocos, CDO and summer! He shared some happenings in his life as well.

I also shared some of my thoughts for this day.

No. 1 - INSECURITIES. This monster can do a lot of damage to a person and much much more to the people around that insecure person. [I've witnessed it in HS, College, myself etc]. Now I really believe that it is a BLACK POWER. Lose yourself to it and the next thing you know, YOU ARE NO LONGER THE SAME PERSON. You'll be much more unhappy and envy and discontent as you used to be. REALLY DESTRUCTIVE. Like a time bomb. I wanna see how it'll explode, maybe soon. [but for the sake of kindness, i hope not]

No. 2 - MONEY. This crashes principle. So tempting. So much needed. So much loved. So much wanted. Wonder if it'd just OVERRATED or it is really that significant. The quickest way to forget or get an amnesia or alzheimer is to face yourself to a LOT of money. Trusts broken. Friendships ended. Love died. Culprit - MONEY.

No. 3 - Being a Mad Cow. I cant really explain it right now but one trait of MC is being someone who almost beg for an attention to the point of being extremes [ultra ignorant one moment, super intelligent the next beat]. I know, never say NEVER. But I'll NEVER be a Mad Cow. The moment I become one means I'm possessed or I'm already six feet under or I am insane that is.

Nyt Sweeties.

Miss Sachi