
I am almost half a year away from home. Six months seemed to be a long, long time but for me it isn't. It was just as fast as the breeze of wind that touches my skin right this very moment at our house's front deck.
It was swift, almost negligible, almost unnoticeable. I have come up a question for my self and me not being able to answer it quickly nor clearly make me feel sad & bad about myself. =(
The big question: WHAT HAVE CHANGED IN ME?
That was six months, half a year, 26 something weeks, 180++ days, something in me must've changed for goodness sake!
So I think, carefully. Okay, I got a new laptop, new cellphone. I saw snow and had been in some of NZ's tourist destinations. I've got a few dollars. I learned how to cook and I've been a cashier and a choir member for a short period. That's all I could think of. That's all in six months.
So, should I cry now? Big NO. I think again.
Despite the distance, I've been closer to my family especially my mom. We now say i love you to each other. I've been closer to my friends. I was able to reestablish contact with almost all of them especially with the long lost ones. I now appreciate MORE what I used to have. I've been in love under any other circumstances - good times, tough times. God is good and He made me get through those 6 months of weariness. I believe that I'll come out of this stronger and more of a dreamer. Those however are yet to be proven when I'm finally home.
That's quite a lot already right? I could have done them in the Phil. but I did not. Too busy. Too pre-occupied. Six months I guess is just perfect for me to undergo something I would otherwise not experience if I had stayed. I'm still hoping that sooner it'll become more obvious to me the reasons and the lessons why in just a single step I suddenly found myself in the Pacific region. =)
Maybe only when I'm back home then I will be able to see clearly what really have changed in me. I hope you guys are there when I find it out. =) In the meantime here are Sachi's small realizations & reminders to herself:
♥ FAITH IN HIM, FAMILY & FRIENDS & Your OWN SELF would help us overcome the most horrible and terrible phase of our lives. Come to think of it, these things are the real life's treasures. they can't be bought or lost. And they do count Up There.
♥ We should appreciate the things around us 'cos there are problems & difficulties all over the world! Problems and hardships are endless, countless... hey that's why we're on earth! The challenge is for us to see beauty, peace, a li'l piece of heaven on Earth and we can start by appreciating our lives, what we have, what's around us.
♥ Love during the tough times and under prejudices is definitely sweeter. We know that its easier to love during good times. The challenge begins during difficult times. It'll define not how real or how strong Love is but how growing it is, how promising, how forgiving.
♥ Every day is a chance to grow, to try something new and to become better, stronger & prettier person inside out. We have a lifetime which has an expiration to do things that will make us happy and healthy better persons. A person God wants us to be and a person who is loving and caring.
♥ It pays off to be good to people, even if sometimes they're not good to you. I think the Universe has a way of balancing things. Most likely people will return the kindness you've shown them but if not then the Universe will but if not again, surely HE will, in heaven.
♥ Dreams may die but dreamers do not. In every dream that dies a new one is born. That's one beauty of humanity & of life.
With all honesty, I'm good in school academics but I'm bad in remembering life's lessons. ='( Hope this blog of mine would remind me that on this day I realized the things I stated above. Yeah I'm guilty, I always loose the lessons along the way, it is just right now that I'm being more cautious with them. And I know it's not yet too late.
All Love,
Miss Sachi
* I'm just as lost as you are.*